A New Day...

Today starts a new day. Hope it will all goes well. Bloody nervous anyway. People will move on, but trying to adapt to a new life, now that is something else. Please help me go thru this.....Help me Obi-Wan Kenobi, you are my only hope.

Jealousy

Hye guys, it's me again. How are you guys so far?... Hope you are in better health than before. As always, mine is fine, so far. No complaints. So, sekarang ni adalah crunch time for me to get better. Better as if in my work. I dah dpt offer keje. The problem is adakah ianya akan berubah menjadi yang lebih baik atau teruk? That remains to be seen.

Few days back, I kept thinking a lot about her. My friends cakap it's ok to think, but not to the extent of becoming an obsessed person. So, now, I'm making careful steps not to become an obsessive person.

Jealous. I dah ade rase jealous. Is it normal?...I hope it's just a phase that will pass. Damn...I never wanted it to be like this. I'm not ready for this. Hope I can make it thru the night.

Now, out of the blue, I suddenly got imsomniac episodes. Dr. Siva, my family doctor, told me it is connected to emotional disorders. So, better get your life straighten out Qhalil, or you are going to suffer.

I think I dah buat salah kat dia. Mungkin dia nampak I moody kat office, terus dia takut nak tegur. So, camne nie?...Adoyaiii... Dahla kepala tgh denyut2 x leh tido...huhuhu....dah makan pil tido pun x jalan, camne nie?

Dah la...Cukupla buat hari ni. Kang x leh nak berenti pun susah gak. So, nitey nite to u all. Jangan nakal2...Ciao!

Kerja Gila

Hahaha....wassup guys and gurls? How have you been doing? Hope yours is better than mine. Me? I baru j MC dua hari nie...Mungkin tgh pening keje. Keje sucks. I am struggling abes dengan my new job. Tambah plak dgn my sudden cravings of chocolate. Damn. I dunno. I just miss my old job kat KLIA.

Sometime kita slalu ade wishful thinking kan? Kita harap itu, ini, begitu, begini. Tapi wish je la kan?...Ade ke kita usaha nak capai apa yang kita nak? Kita semua nak barang free...betul x? Tapi, kalo korang perasan, benda free tu la yang kita x akan hargai. Kita akan wat dono je bila dapat. X kesah la sama ade barang ke, duit ke, orang ke.... most of the times kita akan x wat kesah. Then bila bende tu dah x der baru la terkial-kial cari balek. By that time, it's already too late.

Harap-harap korang tak akan ikut cara aku. I once got a good chance in life and I screw it up royally. So, take it as an object lesson for life. Never ever take things for granted.

I finally have found best friend. I dah lame x rase camni since arwah ade. Really had fun with that person. Hope dapat keluar dengan die lagi. X leh la nak kecoh-kecoh kat sini. Nanti jadi macam melodi, habeh doh. Huhuhu. Be clandestine at the moment. Hehehe.

Doktor komplen kat aku yang aku kene start dieting. So, aku kene la start dieting. Kene kuatkan willpower katenye (Tgk ayam goreng pun dah terliok, ape tah lagi yang len). So, Qhalil, you can do it. Kuatkan iman tgk makanan tu. From now on, kene makan breakfast, makan lunch, and dinner plak...makan roti je (ah...tidak!!!!). So, kene la berkorban. Huhuhu.

Ok la guys, gua nak tido...Kang ade esok aku terbabas x gi keje. So, see you guys around and be good fellas....Ciao!

Another Day In Paradise

Well, it's me again. Saturday, hoping for a nice day to hang out. But it turns out it rained the whole day. So, just lepak je kat umah. Hugging my bantal busuk...ehehehehe. Pastu tido. Then tolong my mom ajar gune Microsoft Word. Pastu makan. Pastu tido balek. Sekarang x leh tido plak. Adoyaii. Jumaat hari tu plak angkat call. Berabuk sepaking London aku. Naseb baek aku paham ape yang diorang mintak. Kuikuikui.... Isnin ni dah start angkat call sorang-sorang. Harap aku boleh buat yang terbaek. TV plak tengah bukak citer The Exorcist. Aku dah seram. Ciyaka tul. So, terpaksa la ku layan TV sorang-sorang. Nak tgk DVD pun tak ade citer yang best. Entah la.

Aku nak tanya korang la. Adakah lebih baek hidup sorang-sorang atau dengan life partner? Maksud life partner ialah someone yang kita leh hidup bersama tapi tanpa perlu berkahwin? Bila pikir kan.... Lagi bagus ade life partner dari kahwin. I mean, kahwin nak tu nak ni...pastu kalo x best cerai...Masuk court la, ape la...Banyak keje doh. Tapi bila dengan life partner, kalo dah x ngam, ok...bye. THE END. X perlu bende yang rumit-rumit. So, camne tue?... Aku tanye je...Bukan aku ade awek pun nak buat macam nie. Just terfikir benda yang terbaek untuk hidup. Ye la, aku dari split family. Aku tak nak bila aku kawen nanti, pastu cerai, yang seksa anak-anak aku nanti. Aku dah rase berapa peritnya hidup ade indifference in family. Tensen wooo.

Cite Exorcist ni dah wat aku meremang bulu roma doh. Heyy...please la bukak citer laen. Tapi masalahnye, ade astro pun boring gak. Balek-balek pasang citer same. X ke gila namanya tue. Huhuhuhu.

Dah almost a few years gone solo. Nenek aku dah bagi soklan cepu mas "Bila nak rase cicit?" Adeh. Kalo leh kawen free kan best. X pening kepala aku nie ha. (Bob, ko gila. Hutang bersepah pun nak kawen gak ke?) Tunggu ye mummy. Nanti kalo ade calon dengan cepat aku bagi bini aku mengandung. Hwahahahaha... Gila aku nie.

Lame plak aku meroyan kat sini. Cukupla buat hari nie. Nanti-nanti la aku sambung cer. Ciao cin cau beb. Wahahahaha

First try in blogging

This is my first trial in being a blogger. I really don't know what to write. Maybe I'm the type of guy who kept his things close to his heart. I dunno. Life, so far is good. No complaints so far. Only a few things that could be improved. Nothing much. Its been almost 10 months since I last prayed. Maybe I'm still sulking from the Lord himself. Maybe I'm just being indifferent towards religion. I don't know. The only thing that makes me not thinking of my problems is cooking. I just cooked myself a nice char kuay teow. Hope my mom won't be pissed at what I just did in her kitchen. (Mom, I'll clean up later, I swear.) Cooking, well, in the simplest of words, makes me happy. It just makes me feel focused. Now, I'm suddenly craving for chocolate. Masak lagi...So, I'm off to the kitchen. Bye peeps...